Wednesday, December 2, 2009

MY WORLD IS CHANGING; IT'S REARRANGING.

CHANGE. Is inevitable. Leads to growth. Growth is good. They say...

I have a tendency to be resistant to change - I don't really like it. I like to do the same things year after year on holidays; I like to watch the same old movies repeatedly. I like the OLD Jungle Cruise boats and Swiss Family Robinson Tree House and I miss May Company and Bullock's and Buffums and the Broadway Department stores! And don't get me started on the grocery stores! I like to sleep on the same side of the bed every night. It is comforting. It is my world.
But things change. My world is changing. It is rearranging.
I resisted learning to drive, setting up an answering machine in my home, using a computer and cell phone. Today I have a 130 mile daily round trip commute for work, my answering machine has been replaced with voicemail and I am tethered to my imac and my iphone! I keep in touch with my kids, loved ones and friends via texts and emails and I use Evites (electronic invitations!)
Mother's pass away and Father's remarry - adding more names to my Christmas Card list (and email addresses!)
Children that once needed someone to wipe their noses and bottoms are now young adults - purchasing kleenex and toilet paper for their own home!
A son breaks up with his girlfriend - leaving an emptiness in my heart that only time and more change will fill. Change that I resist.
A son that brings so much laughter into our home, is found at home less and less. The house is so much quieter these days...
A daughter that once played in her grandmother's high heels now wears high heels of her own. And looks great in them!
Thanksgiving - a time for family to be together, was for the first time in 27 years, a time when my family was NOT together.
Friendships that were as solid as rock for years begin to crumble into pebbles, then into sand and then disappear in the wind. Winds of change...

Change. Things change. Seasons Changes. People change.

My world is changing and rearranging. And although I am not the most willing participant in this makeover, I keep trying. Because CHANGE IS GOOD. Right?